For what it's worth, I love you as if you were my family.

Throughout my life, which happens to only be 17 years, I've met my fair share of people. I've met people I can trust, love, and care about; but I've also met people I wish I could hit with 2 by 4 piece of ply wood. I know it's not very nice, but sometimes people deserve it. Personally, I trust very few people, and my trust happens to be on two different levels. The first level is "I trust you, but If you go down you're not dragging me with you." While the second level of trust is "I trust you, and If you go down I'm going down with you; but we better go down swinging." The first level a lot of people most likely fall under. I mean, I might stick up for you and all but my walls remain up. However, for the second level it takes a lot of work to fall under. Meanwhile, no matter what, I know that if someone made it to the second level of trust then that someone is probably going to stay by my side when everyone else leaves. And for the people that do that for me, I'm thankful, because I'm not a very easy person to stick by. If I ever drove anyone through Hell and back, I'm sorry. And for what it's worth, I love you, and I'll take a bullet for you any day. So this is for the people that made a difference in my life good or bad.Thank you.

#5 Pink Slime

When I watched the video on pink slime I was disgusted. Like, I mean if humans can't digest the type of meat shown in the video than why even try and do anything with it. The fact that the government hides it from us as well irritates me. People are eating meat that was practically thrown in a dryer and then drowned in ammonia, and the government is okay with it? Are you crazy?!? Now when I look at hamburger meat when my guardian buys it from the store I almost want to throw up. I am sickened by thought of the hamburger meat and what the government allows to get done to it. I don't know about anyone else, but what I do know is that I'm seriously going to think twice about what I'm eating and where it's coming from.

The Perfect Paradise

Everyone invisions something that would look a little like this as the perfect paradise. Somewhere they could go to get away from the cold dead wind of reality and they do different things to get to their special paradise. Some people would call me strange or bizarre for not picturing someting like this as my paradise. Instead, I picture not a full day but a little moment of spending time with someone special. When I picture my own personal paradise I don't picture it away from anyone but with the people I love and that love me. Happy, spending time together with no interruptions just us and the momentsw and memories we can make. My paradise is happily spent with the people that I love. My paradise is simple but I have to have music playing. As long as I am with people I love and listening to music I'm in paradise.

#4 What We Eat

I have never really thought about where our food comes from. Or even how the animals get treated. Are they healthy? Are they nutritioned right? What's going on? Well i recently discovered that the majority of our chicken, pork, and beef come from animals within factory farms. While in these factory farms the animals are getting mistreated. They are being put in cages and enclosures that are far too small for the amount of animals that they force and shove in there. Once I came accross the pictures of the animals on factory farms I was absolutely disgusted with what they were doing and the fact that the government allowed it to happen. and I dont like the thought of our food that we are consuming being engineered. Especially since the animals are not getting nutritioned right, as well as mistreated. If the fact that the animals are being mistreated and malnutritioned than maybe the fact that their mistreatment can affect us and our health. Because of the things that are happening on factory farms humans are getting sick because they consumed the meat. They are ending up with Swine Flu, Mad Cow Disease, Foot and Mouth Disease, as well as Avian Influenza. In cases humans even died from receiving an illness because of the animal products consumed. America NEEDS to care about what the government is doing behind closed doors, and as Americans we need to take action.

Sometimes Blood Is No Thicker Than Water

I know it's perfectly normal for families to dispute every now and then. It's normal because when it comes to family they are supposed to be there at the end of the day supporting, comforting, caring, and loving one another. I'm not saying all families are the same, because everyone has their own problems, but all families have at least someone they can rely on in their family when things get rough. They have someone to run to when things are complicated. Someone that they care about and someone that cares about them. They have family. When you have family that will love you unconditionally it feels as if they don't need anything else just as long as you know you have atleast one person that is your blood that cares about you just as much as you care about them. 

However, there are times when you can't rely on someone in your family, because sometimes blood is no thicker than water. And in my family, that is exactly how it is. In a regular family a child usually has their mom or dad to turn to when things become complicated. Personlly, I turn to someone that isn't even my blood. I turn to someone that takes care of me even though we're not even related. My mom and dad closed their door on me so many times without me doing anything wrong. They have left me when I needed them the most and abondoned me when I had no where to turn. Meanwhile, someone who isn't even related to me took me in and gave me a roof over my head and a actual home not just a house. She showed me what having a real family is actually like. And it amazes me that sometimes blood is no thicker than water, and I thank my parents for that because if they wouldn't have treated me the way they did I would have never found my way to the loving family and Home I am now in.

#3 What May Occur

"Everybody gets so much information all day long that they lose their common sense." - Gertrude Stein.
After watching the video human dystopia I thought that this quote related to the matter of what technology could lead to in the future. In the animated movie Wall-E it shows human life taking place on a spacecraft in outer space. On the spacecraft everything is completely run by technology. With the constant use of technology humans began to rely more on the technology in which they considered they needed. The humans then began to get obese doing nothing that required using more than their mouth and finger movement. The scene where the two men were talking to eachother through a projected hologram when they were right next to eachother, not even turning to actually speak to one another. While in another scene one of the men fell out of his hovering chair and couldn't even get himself up. When I contemplate on the differences between today and the movie Wall-E it upsets me. It upsets me because our generation is more caught up into using technology so much that we might end up relying on nothing but technology. Technology surrounds us. As I am writing this blog post I am guessing that mostly everyone is using technology im some way, shape, or form. However, Personally, I would rather talk to someone in person than through an electronic device. However, I do realize many people, already, would rather speak to someone through a computer. If we could break ourselves out of these habits, we won't continue to ask ourselves "What has our generation come to? Why didn't we fix the problem when we had a chance? Why do we rely so much on something that can malfunction." On that note, I believe we need to rely more on ourselves than an electronic device.

Always a Shadow.

I have many moments where I just lie in my bed and think. Whenever this happens my thoughts always come to one thing, my parents. I want them to look back at their hopes for me growing up and seriously think. Did I grow up according to plan? Do they think I'm wasting my time doing things I want to do? I try extremely hard to make it in life. Personally, I just want to make them proud. I try not to think about how much pain I am caused being unacknowledged by my own parents. I am not noticed for doing things that are right; however, my brothers and sisters were noticed for doing things that were wrong. In the shadow of my brothers and sisters my parents leave me to walk, especially my mother. It must've been hard for my mom to raise seven kids on her own. It pains me to know how much trouble my older siblings caused upon her while growing up. It was difficult. They made her mad, frustrated, stressed, sad, hurt, and most of all disappointed with their reckless and indecent behavior. However, when it comes to my father it was a bit different. My father wasn't around much growing up. He would come and go and for that my love for my own father figure grew into something else. I eventually grew to despise him. I despised him for the longest time; which made me feel as if there was a darkness inside of me from all of the "hate". Nevertheless, no matter how my parents make me feel there was once a time when they were my heroes. However this was when I was little, before I had realized the reality of how things really were. Because of the actions of my older siblings I was constantly judged growing up. My parents didn't notice the things I would do right but they would await for the times I would do wrong. With the realization of this theory I have always felt like I would never be good enough for my parents, especially my mother. I felt as if no matter how well I am doing it would never satisfy her. The effect that this has upon me is an invearable pain that I hide. Behind walls and a mask I will forever hide. It will hide my true feelings while I act as if I feel nothing. In the dark and grey shadows my family leaves me to walk. While all I maintain is silence until the day that the shadows that I walk in see sunlight. That will be the day that I will get acknowledged for all the things that are right that I have done.